It's been a while that I sat down and blogged something like seriously. It would take some time to become a normal addictive blogger again, there's so much going in the real life. We'll be moving into a new house, my aunt would get married on my birthday and I'll finally start a new chapter of life.
Last month, I spent good times with music. But hey, nothing was actually good. I made a random playlist and whenever a sad song would come, I'd start crying. That was pretty unbearable. I removed every Lana Del Rey's song. Honestly, some of her songs make me sad for really no reason. Like, I don't have a life where I'd cut myself or suicide if someone called me ugly (I'd kill that bitch, preferably) or I have a terrible love life. Now I have started to make sure if I'm in such a happy mood, her songs shouldn't show up. So if you see me in a happy mood during a travel and suddenly my eyes are teary, spot those earphones and playlist carrying her songs. I think sad songs aren't healthy for my good mood!
And yes, the books.
I remember when I first had "The fault in our stars" ebook, I was pretty excited to read. And I remember I was really happy. But then I started reading it. Yes yes I was happy when I started reading but then my feelings were heavy. Crying was obvious, John Green killed Augustus. And I spent all day WHY MY FAVOURITE CHARACTERS ALWAYS DIE? Remember Sirius Blacks' death in Harry Potter? I'd never forgive J.K Rowling for that! And then my happiness would disappear for the whole day. Look, I'm this easy to feel sad. And there's an Urdu Novel called Amarbail, I read it for like 3 days, it was so long and in the end my favourite character (Who was a handsome angry man) died. And I was like, what? WHAT? NO YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME! I mean, my feelings were ruined!
Another example of "I was happy but then" is when I get an unfollow. Wow, that's the worst thing that can happen to a blogger. Why you unfollow? I wanna cry! My real life friends would never understand. And when I'd tell the reason of my sadness, they're like, "It's just one follower you lost and it's just a number." Excuse me, my followers are real people and you, my boy, are a disgrace!
That's in total what gives me an instant sadness even in the happiest hours of my life. Maybe it's not that unusual and I am not the only one but still people around me (aka Noori) doesn't do it much.
Does anything give you an instant sadness?